Never Thought I Was
I never thought I was anybody special. I got my first apartment and I got my second apartment. But then I went to do something in California and that is confusing. It is something else. Difficulty to talk about meaningfully.
I joined a sort of psychotherapy group. I came back to Chicago with my head blown apart, living in my own reality. There was little hope (as far as I could see—anywhere!) And so, I did not have many options, but I decided to attend college. And I went to college, which I had put off, up until then, as age 25.
I took me four years to graduate and they I tried graduate school. This was after getting my B.G.S. degree. I could not do that. At any rate, all this time I never set out to be anybody special. But surprises hit me. And adult life is so difficult. It was 1988 that I left school.
I just wanted to have some kind of life. Now it is 2021. I live alone in the world now. I have changed, of course. I used to think there was a certain way a person was supposed to be — and too bad for you if you were not that way. I thought so then, but, slowly, I got over it. I was no longer thinking that.
Everyone is different and many have more problems that I do.
Eventually, I received DzogChen teaching from Ch. Namkai Norbu. I am working on the rainbow body.